Forecast

As per the weather reports,it's gonna rain today. Fortunately,it's very cloudy in the morning and a small pellet rain has already been started. Raining is the time of joy for me,it make my mind more creative and efficient. I think very widely when it rain,especially when it thunders. Unfortunately, right now it won't.

Like my fast few posts,I have been going through a hard time. May be it's because of my loneliness I am writing this, who else can read this? Just me. I hope this will tribute to someone who will become a real part of me in future.

Am I deadpool? I am talking to myself and to the reader at same time. It's getting complex to write. Recently I had feeling that I am losing memory. I don't remember many things if my past. The moments I spend,the days I had and the happiness I enjoyed. When someone quotes them,i find it hard to remember them. Am I having a memory loss? Is this,any brain degenerate disease, opening it's gates? I don't know. I simply want to believe that my careless seriouslessness behaviour is what causing this. After all, I am a lazy bug,a smoking vent and a fucking jerk.